Moonless Night

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To end January on a brilliant note, the new PMS Perzine is now out! Purple Moon Spawn is the new name of my zine, but it’s still the same zine, so the issue numbers continue where they left off. This is issue 15.

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It’s 32 pages of a bunch of different things. It includes a stream of consciousness piece, a short fiction story, a look back at 2018 and plans for 2019, discussions about the moon and the stars and all the wonderful celestial unfathomables that be, and more.

Writing this zine came with a degree of difficulty. I think the most difficult zine I wrote to date is Ima Badass. But this difficulty was different.

Ima Badass was emotionally difficult because of the sensitive subject matter – being a mother while being an artivist and a zinester and finding a healthy and manageable balance between the two.

Issue 15 of PMS Perzine was physically difficult. Working the morning shifts, followed by a bunch of appointments and errands during the afternoons, house chores and childcare in the evenings, and short nights cut even shorter by the time it takes me to fall asleep – all these elements made for a very tired badass. This past Tuesday, I complained to my husband about how “this day just doesn’t want to end!”

Being tired out of my wits is not a good state to be zinestering. Inspiration is impossible to come by, ideas about what kind of elements to include in the zine quickly run dry, and many things I tried to write or create ended up in the wastebasket because they sucked. The 32 pages I did manage to add were the ones that I found to be the best ones out of the many others I tried.

I fell into the trap that people keep talking about – how we measure our worth by our productivity. I never measured myself according to what I create, but I think this past month proved otherwise. I pushed myself to near-exhaustion, trying to cram a bunch of activities, plans, chores and errands into a short amount of time, so much so that the very activity that I’m supposed to enjoy (making a zine) became a chore in itself!

I hate this feeling.

And so, as a method of self-care, I decided to space it out a little. One thing per month. Next month, I’ll be focussing on my Canadian passport application. This contributes to the amount of stress in my life to a point where I’m losing all my hair. I ought to charge the Canadian government for my hair extensions, for real!

The month after that… I don’t know. I’ll see when I get there.

But I am not making any (full-length) zines until the right time comes, most likely International Zine Month, when I can thoroughly enjoy it as I did with my other zines.

I consider this “Purple Moon” spawned. Off to the dark side I move.

Peace, love and set the snooze for 14 hours

 


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To Hell with Procrastination

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I’m very happy with my progress with my new year’s resolutions. I already got the new bag that I’ve been meaning to get. I also got a cool patch to sew on it (I’ll ask my mom to do it though because she has a sewing machine whereas I have two myotonized hands).

Today, I made a new patch for my Etsy shop. And here it is!

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And, miracle of miracles, I’m actually done with my Canadian passport application. I have an appointment at the embassy in a couple of weeks and I hope to get this out of the way as fast and as swiftly as I can (provided they don’t send me back to Jerusalem empty-handed because of documents I may be missing, which will probably happen because Murphy’s Law is my mortal enemy). I don’t want to spend one more minute with this headache than I have to. Ugh!

For the past week, I’ve also spent most of my time covering my dining room table and my work station with tiny confetti-size pieces of paper while working on the new issue of my zine. A nice little pattern of black, purple and white, as well as star stickers and washi tape stuck all over the place became my new tablecloth/desk, and all is right in my universe.

I also wrote a final piece for the zine and drew my mascot, Twigz, for the last page. I’ll uncover the cover in due time, but for now, I can honestly say it’s definitely in my top three favorite zine covers.

Once the layout is done, I hope to have it printed and ready before the end of the month. That means hauling ass, which I shall do now.

Peace, love and praise the zine mess

 


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War on Winter Mini-Zine

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My activity for today was to create a mini zine. So I spent my day at the office making a mini zine with tips for fighting winter blues because seriously that’s what I’m trying to do and it’s becoming pretty fucking difficult when we have a combination of crazy winds, hail, rain, snow and thunderstorms in the forecast.

Yes, shit.

As my luck would have it, I ran out of glue, so my mini zine is all in pieces which is why I can’t share it with you at the moment. But this is the cover I will be using:

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It’s a computer collage I made a few years back as the cover for the freedom issue of Af magazine. I didn’t think I’d ever get a chance to use it for one of my own zines, but yes, I’m using it for my new mini zine.

I think the zine as a whole came out rather nicely. I’m especially proud of myself because instead of using computer graphics and Google Image searches, I drew my own stuff! My lack of talent at drawing was not so bad, if I do say so myself, and my attempt was successful. So hell yay!!

Peace, love and dear winter, prepare to meet your doom!

White-Out the Winter

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Since renewal is pretty much the theme of the new issue of my PMS Perzine, I decided to try a new style of writing and wrote a very short fiction story.

Originally, I wanted the story to be about a 20-something-year-old woman who tries to fight her winter blues by doing one of the things she loved most which is going to her favorite office supplies store and look at the cute journal designs, only to find that the store has closed until further notice.

Which, by the way, is exactly what happened to me today, except I’m a 30-something-year-old-woman, and I have better ways to fight my winter blues. But yes, woe is unto me, my favorite office supplies store is closed until further notice, and I’m upset as fuck. Where do I get my zine ammo now? How do I fight my winter blues?

My short fiction story turned out quite different than what I had intended, but I think it’ll do. It’s about a 30-something-year-old woman trying to fight the winter blues by looking for a best friend.

Which, by the way, also hits pretty close to home. Looking out the window this morning, I saw the first blue sky since last week. It’s been gray and depressing this whole time. So as I was doing my meditation part of Tai Chi Thursday, I thought “If the sky can clear, maybe my future can, too. Maybe I will find a best friend at some point.”

The story also ends on a positive note. I felt it necessary after the “closed until further notice” sign on my favorite store stared me in the face. Just a bit of positivity in a fiction story. At the very least.

Peace, love and your mind is like a boundless sky.

 


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Bark at the Purple Moon

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I’m working on a new issue of my zine, featuring the new name “Purple Moon Spawn”.

I finished writing the intro, explaining my reasons for the name change. And I also wrote a piece about my connection to the moon – the significance it has in my life, what it represents for me and how I identify with the cycles.

Most of what I wrote came out rather metaphorical, somewhat surreal, and includes a bit of a spiritual twist. Not necessarily religious, but more “transcendent” than most of my recent writing.

It’s undoubtedly the powerful influence of the moon. Today is the new moon of Shvat. The moon is dark. It must stand for something. New moon. New zine. It was the perfect day to start writing it.

Also, according to my New Year’s resolutions, I set my zine-production day for Monday. So today was successful and very productive indeed.

I can’t wait to continue working on this new, shiny, glowy, purple-power perzine!

Peace, love and Lunar-Chicks

 


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Caution: Artivism Ahead!

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I decided to go ahead with a list of re-zine-lutions anyway, as ideas are coming and going through my head and if I don’t write them down, they might be doing more “going” than “coming” and never come back.  Some of these already appear in my previous post, and also in my diary, but yeah, I want them all together in here.

So this is what I hope to accomplish this year somewhere in between Load of Laundry One and Load of Laundry Two.

  1. Write and publish a new issue of Purple Moon Spawn
  2. Participate in International Zine Month
  3. Give Inktober a shot, even if I suck at drawing
  4. Participate in ZineWriMo
  5. Make at least three mini zines
  6. Make a new flyer for PMS Mess
  7. Contact new zinesters for trades
  8. If number 7 accomplished, make a zine-review zine about zines traded
  9. Reorganize my zine collection (and make sure to stack it up high enough so Little Miss Demolition Toddler won’t get at it)
  10. Set Monday as my zinestering day and fuck all other house chores and obligations
  11. Update and print my PMS Mess catalog for 2019 (preferably do this at the end of the year so that all my new zines and creations appear in it too)
  12. Revive my journaling flame and record accomplishments as they come
  13. Make another mini-zine with my daughter (a.k.a. Little Miss Demolition Toddler)

Tips for keeping a creative frame-of-mind:

  • If feeling uninspired, reread “Overthrow the Status Quo” by Nyxia Grey – the most inspiring zine in the world if there ever was one!
  • Light scented candles and keep them nearby
  • Use every free moment at the office to draw/write something
  • Turn off my goddamn phone

I may have more ideas flowing in soon, and if they do, I’ll add them in my journal and thus stick to the activity of number 12.

Wish me luck!

Peace, love and kickassery shall prevail!

 


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Water Breaker

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Due to a stupid foot injury, I spent my day at home yesterday. I thought I might have some time to continue my brainstorm for zine ideas, but naturally, laundry got in the way, as it always does on Sundays.

I still have some pretty good ideas for the zine but some of them are time-sensitive, so I’ll have to get a move on, lest the time-sensitivity runs out and I’m left with blank pages.

Ah, the blank page! So full of possibilities for writing ideas, and so full of possibilities for writer’s block.

Sometimes, all I need to do to make the words come is just start writing. And if I stumble upon just the right words, they stop coming and start flooding instead. The end of words loosens its grip, and gets washed away with the flood… as it feels like it’s about to do now.

So I should stop and save all this for the zine. Stop the flow. Break the water.

Peace, love and stream of consciousness is that very flood of words.