As the Pages Burn

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I’m kind of craving zine-production again. I say “kind of” because I’m not sure I’m entirely there yet. I haven’t made one since January and decided to take a few months off to avoid burning out. That’s because last year, I made a few zines and mini zines and set my productivity mode to “crazy high”. I felt I needed to do that after not having produced anything for the couple of years before that when I was pregnant then taking care of my baby.

So this is how it went:
1) Me in 2007 to 2014: producing zines.
2) Me in 2015: getting married, going on honeymoon, producing lots of zines and attending the Boston Zine Fest.
3) Me in 2016: getting pregnant and losing all inspiration whatsoever. Not producing zines.
4) Me in 2017: taking care of baby girl, desperately trying to produce zines, and finally publishing one (with extreme difficulty) in October.
5) Me in 2018: taking care of a toddler, but free enough to go all out – went to Slutwalk, went to Pride, participated in International Zine Month and ZineWriMo, organized art mornings and crafternoons, produced three full-length zines and several minis.

When I released the latest zine I made, January 2019, I felt the initial signs of impending burnout. My head hurt every time I picked up my pen, and anything I put down on paper was stupid and devoid of any value. I complained in this blog that this is due to me being tired as fuck. But it was more than that. I was pushing my zinestering abilities to the edge and I don’t think I had it in me to admit it to myself. Until now. I pushed it and almost fell headlong into the abyss of zine-burnout.

So I decided to put the pen back down and put all my zine ammo in storage until I feel ok again. Meanwhile, I engaged in other creative things.

First, I made myself a bullet journal. I had it printed in March and I love the hell out of it! It’s so convenient and well-designed! I love having space to plan my day/week/month ahead of time, and keep track of all the achievements and positive points as I go along. It gives me a chance to get shit done and also an incentive to keep going. I also use it as a sort of diary. If I suddenly feel the urge to write longhand, I have a whole page to do it on.

Then, I went on a crazy creative spree planning out my daughter’s potty training party. Even if it didn’t work out at the end, I enjoyed all the creative stuff I managed to do. I painted, and drew, and cut, and pasted, and wrapped, and folded for a whole month.

I didn’t participate in the Mini-Zine March challenge because I didn’t feel ready yet. But I think I’m slowly getting there. By International Zine Month in July, I hope to be back in full-fledged zinestering frenzy mode and revel in zine magic. I ought to start stocking up on magazine clippings and flyers.

Peace, love and let the motherfucker burn

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Tidy-Whities

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Still not making any zines, but I’m still being pretty creative. The potty-training party I’m planning for my kid is making me spend all my money on stuff I need for the endeavor, and spend all my creativity as well.

The party theme I chose is teddy-bear picnic, so I’m trying to set up the living room to look like a park. I bought a grass-looking rug, bought some green paint and construction paper to make some bushes and trees to hang around the house, bought a new shower curtain and a paper-doll chain of teddy bears to hang in the bathroom, a bunch of other toys and stickers and temp tattoo games, an industrial amount of new underwear ages 2 to 4, and so much other stuff, enough to land me in the poor house.

And of course, I spent a hearty 180 NIS on a potty-training doll. Anatomically correct, coming with a bottle and a potty, which means you can actually get her to drink and make her pee on the potty. The party plan also involves getting the doll to have accidents. For that purpose, my mom sewed some doll-sized panties (that the doll will wet), and I spent the last couple of hours decorating them with fabric paint.

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They’re not exactly mind-blowing by any means, but I did try to draw shapes and objects that I know my daughter likes – stars, hearts, flowers, butterflies, a smiley face, a teddy bear and a snail. Having to squeeze the fabric-paint bottles with my myotonized fingers proved to be harder than expected, so now I’m in a bit of pain, but pretty damn happy with myself. If it won’t get my daughter potty-trained, at least I know my daughter will like it.

Further creativity to be drained includes wrapping a bunch of toys as little gifts, re-writing popular kids’ songs with potty-training-related lyrics (in Hebrew no less!), painting bristol boards and construction paper to look like sky with clouds, a sun and birds, as well as trees, bushes, flowers and maybe some bees, molding poop-shaped pebbles out of brown fimo, decorating tiny plastic cups with stickers, decorating a potty with stickers, decorating the fuck out of the toilet with stickers, baking cookies and other treats (goddamn Passover is only going to make it that much harder on me), and loads of other stuff I can’t think of right now.

When I started this whole business, my husband said “I think you’re enjoying organizing this party more than our kid will enjoy the party itself.” I told him he’s wrong, and that I’m going out of my way so that she will enjoy it, and that for me it’s actually a headache… but yeah, I admit it. I do enjoy being creative. If making zines is not happening, making art for my kid is the next best thing.

Peace, love and smell the magic

Brutal Bullets

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I’m a little off the grid at the moment due to my lack of zine production, but it doesn’t mean I haven’t been active.

In fact, today I will be unveiling my new attempt at designing a daily planner! The last time I took on such a momentous project was around 2015 when I designed a daily planner for my friend from the States. It was her birthday and I wanted to do something special for her so I designed her a personalized daily planner with pictures of her and her dog all over the place. It took me forever but it was worth it and came out really nice and she obviously loved it.

As I’m rather scatterbrained right now and I’m always trying to find new ways to set up my day/week/month so I can incorporate all the important things like cooking, exercising, engaging in various forms of art, and other such stuff in the midst of my mother-of-a-toddler duties, I thought a daily planner would be just the thing I need to have all these activities laid out neatly in front of me.

I set out online to find a daily planner that tickled my fancy. I found bullet journals to be absolutely exquisite, but none of them fit my style. I decided to go the DIY way and create my own daily planner/bullet journal using Adobe InDesign and Photoshop.

All the designs and drawings in this journal are not my own. I found them all on Google images. But as a way to personalize it, I did put some photos of me, my husband, my daughter and my dog here and there.

Here are the results:

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Cover including two zombies because freaky stuff is totally up my alley. I also downloaded a badass creepy font called Spiderfingers and used it all over the place

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The inner cover features a big and adorable photo of my daughter. The opposite page is about me, featuring a picture of me drawn by the amazing Nicole from Pleasure Pie!

Before the journal actually begins, I put a spread of two pages for my New Year’s Resolutions. At the end of the journal, I included a spread for my accomplishments of the year.

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Every month starts with a spread of the monthly days, followed by the days of the week.

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At the end of every week, I put this page called the “Positive Corner” where I would list the positive things that happened that week, no matter how big or small. It is my attempt to keep a positive frame of mind. Writing out the positive things sometimes helps put things in perspective and be grateful for what I have.

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The following page lists my plans for the upcoming week, including meal ideas, grocery list, exercise plans, and random notes.

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At the end of every month, I add this page as an incentive for productivity for the following month. It doesn’t have to be long and elaborate which is why I only have this circle to fill, and it gives me the option of flexibility.

I obviously filled in the important days of the year – anniversaries, birthdays, holidays, and added to the month of July the subheading “International Zine Month”.

My hope is to fill this journal with a bunch of awesome kickass things and follow through with productivity, fulfillment and positivity.

Peace, love and all the good stuff to come

Headbanger’s Bag

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Taking time off from zinestering gave me the chance to focus on other projects.

For the past two days, I’ve been working on sewing patches on my new bag. At first, I wanted my mom to sew them for me with her sewing machine because my fingers may refuse to function. But it didn’t work out. And as my activity of the previous two days proved my finger-disfunction assumption to be almost right, I still managed to prove to myself that I can sew. Even if my fingers got all red, and the patches came out a little crooked, it worked out pretty well. I also added some cool pins on the part of the bag that is under the top flap. That part that is too small for patches ut perfect for pins.

I love the hell out of it and it looks totally DIY and totally badass.

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A bag worthy of a metalhead!

Peace, love and off to put my fingers in ice

What Fantazines Are Made Of

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I just reread the post I wrote a few years ago about my first 24-Hour Zine Thing experience. I know I already wrote a post about how much I want to participate in that challenge again, but I think it bears repeating, because goddamn, I want a 24HZT again!

Alas, times have changed. I am no longer single. I don’t spend every waking hour locked in a warm shelter room, plastered with posters of my favorite singers and bands. I don’t have an endless amount of free hours to engage in hardcore zine-production followed by hardcore zzz’s production. I am no longer the only person in my life I need to tend to. I already said all of that.

And reading that post, I can’t believe it was actually written by me (except for the roach phobia part. That’s all me. Still so terrified of roaches, I could faint if I see one). I can’t believe I managed to stay up for a straight 24 hours without passing out from exhaustion halfway through. I can’t believe I managed to sleep for a straight 14 hours thereafter, without waking up a single time, not even to pee.

These days, I’m tired all the time. By 11 p.m., I’m out like a light. And despite that, I can never sleep in. Even on weekends when I leave my morning maternal duties to my mom or my husband, I never sleep past 9 a.m. Taking naps in the afternoon is impossible because I have a really hard time falling asleep, and have to get up to pee every five minutes. I roll around in bed and wait for the alarm to go off.

That’s why I participate in other challenges like International Zine Month and ZineWriMo. At least, it satisfies my need to produce kickass zines for a little while, and have a whole month to do it.

I can’t wait for July!

Peace, love and it’s a zine come true!

Messy Faces

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As an update to my previous post, I decided to go ahead and start a new Facebook page after all. I said “Fallopian Falafel” page may as well be inactive. “Purple Myrtle Squeegy” might very well be renamed (at least on paper format because Facebook managers are assholes). So the logical step will be to create a page to promote my Etsy shop and reflect all the shit that I produce, sell and trade.

I spent a couple of days uploading a bunch of photos, samples of my zines, flyers, postcards, and colorful piles of art and collages I produced since the onset of my zinesterdom.

I also updated the Facebook page plugin widget on this blog, so you people can “like” it directly from this site. That’s a hint hint, people!

Please like my page and share it on your website/Facebook account/ page/ group/ whatever social media you’re on.

Here’s a little extra: You’re also welcome to post your own page(s) as comments to my posts on my page, and I will like them too. Please and thank you 🙂

So here is the link: http://www.facebook.com/pmsmess

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Peace, love and zines ist fur alle da!

Renew the Cycle

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I’ve been trying to revamp some of my pages and online stuff that promote my zines, namely my perzine’s Facebook page, my Etsy shop, and this blog.

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Since I’ve released my recent work, I haven’t updated these pages accordingly due to a variety of reasons – either I was busy working on another zine, or busy raising my daughter, or being held captive by yet another Stephen King book, or just being lazy, tired or in a procrastination mood.

So now that I’ve updated them (check new items on my Etsy shop, and a new page on this blog under the “Zines” tab called “Others/One-Off”) I’ve been thinking about a total overhaul.

First, I don’t want my zine’s Facebook page to be my zine’s Facebook page anymore, but my Etsy Shop’s Facebook page. So I tried to change its name from Purple Myrtle Squeegy to PMS Mess. But of course, keeping with my lack of luck with changing my actual Facebook name, Facebook refused to change my page’s name, too. I tried to appeal stating that PMS is the acronym for Purple Myrtle Squeegy, so it’s basically the same and it’s not misleading or whatever other shit they said. But they responded to the appeal with the exact same response I got the first time around. Idiots.

Then I tried to merge both of my Facebook pages (PMS and Fallopian Falafel) but again to no avail.

Honestly, I think Facebook people must have worked for the Canadian government at some point because changing the name on my Facebook account isn’t any easier than it is to change it on my Canadian passport.

Anyway, I did update some of the info on the page to indicate that this is a page for my Etsy shop so that I could include non-PMS-perzine-related items in there as well (postcards, art, other zines, etc.) reflecting everything that I sell on Etsy. I was also considering starting a whole new page altogether, but I’m not sure about that yet.

While rewriting the “about us” section of my page, I wrote the title “Moon Spawn”. It occurred to me that if I added a P-word at the beginning of this headline, it would also be a PMS acronym. So naturally, I added Purple.

Purple Moon Spawn.

That’s it! That’s totally it! And because I love this headline too much to just leave it as a headline on a page that may not even be active for much longer, I said this should be the new name for my perzine.

Purple Moon Spawn, formerly known as Purple Myrtle Squeegy – A PMS Perzine.

Fuck yeah!

So ever since this new name came to me, I’ve been running high on inspiration, with no time or incentive to actually run with it. Maybe some brainstorming will help, like it did on the first day of ZineWriMo. But again, time is scarce. But damn! I love that name!!

Peace, love and Assfacebook