As the Pages Burn

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I’m kind of craving zine-production again. I say “kind of” because I’m not sure I’m entirely there yet. I haven’t made one since January and decided to take a few months off to avoid burning out. That’s because last year, I made a few zines and mini zines and set my productivity mode to “crazy high”. I felt I needed to do that after not having produced anything for the couple of years before that when I was pregnant then taking care of my baby.

So this is how it went:
1) Me in 2007 to 2014: producing zines.
2) Me in 2015: getting married, going on honeymoon, producing lots of zines and attending the Boston Zine Fest.
3) Me in 2016: getting pregnant and losing all inspiration whatsoever. Not producing zines.
4) Me in 2017: taking care of baby girl, desperately trying to produce zines, and finally publishing one (with extreme difficulty) in October.
5) Me in 2018: taking care of a toddler, but free enough to go all out – went to Slutwalk, went to Pride, participated in International Zine Month and ZineWriMo, organized art mornings and crafternoons, produced three full-length zines and several minis.

When I released the latest zine I made, January 2019, I felt the initial signs of impending burnout. My head hurt every time I picked up my pen, and anything I put down on paper was stupid and devoid of any value. I complained in this blog that this is due to me being tired as fuck. But it was more than that. I was pushing my zinestering abilities to the edge and I don’t think I had it in me to admit it to myself. Until now. I pushed it and almost fell headlong into the abyss of zine-burnout.

So I decided to put the pen back down and put all my zine ammo in storage until I feel ok again. Meanwhile, I engaged in other creative things.

First, I made myself a bullet journal. I had it printed in March and I love the hell out of it! It’s so convenient and well-designed! I love having space to plan my day/week/month ahead of time, and keep track of all the achievements and positive points as I go along. It gives me a chance to get shit done and also an incentive to keep going. I also use it as a sort of diary. If I suddenly feel the urge to write longhand, I have a whole page to do it on.

Then, I went on a crazy creative spree planning out my daughter’s potty training party. Even if it didn’t work out at the end, I enjoyed all the creative stuff I managed to do. I painted, and drew, and cut, and pasted, and wrapped, and folded for a whole month.

I didn’t participate in the Mini-Zine March challenge because I didn’t feel ready yet. But I think I’m slowly getting there. By International Zine Month in July, I hope to be back in full-fledged zinestering frenzy mode and revel in zine magic. I ought to start stocking up on magazine clippings and flyers.

Peace, love and let the motherfucker burn

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Brutal Bullets

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I’m a little off the grid at the moment due to my lack of zine production, but it doesn’t mean I haven’t been active.

In fact, today I will be unveiling my new attempt at designing a daily planner! The last time I took on such a momentous project was around 2015 when I designed a daily planner for my friend from the States. It was her birthday and I wanted to do something special for her so I designed her a personalized daily planner with pictures of her and her dog all over the place. It took me forever but it was worth it and came out really nice and she obviously loved it.

As I’m rather scatterbrained right now and I’m always trying to find new ways to set up my day/week/month so I can incorporate all the important things like cooking, exercising, engaging in various forms of art, and other such stuff in the midst of my mother-of-a-toddler duties, I thought a daily planner would be just the thing I need to have all these activities laid out neatly in front of me.

I set out online to find a daily planner that tickled my fancy. I found bullet journals to be absolutely exquisite, but none of them fit my style. I decided to go the DIY way and create my own daily planner/bullet journal using Adobe InDesign and Photoshop.

All the designs and drawings in this journal are not my own. I found them all on Google images. But as a way to personalize it, I did put some photos of me, my husband, my daughter and my dog here and there.

Here are the results:

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Cover including two zombies because freaky stuff is totally up my alley. I also downloaded a badass creepy font called Spiderfingers and used it all over the place

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The inner cover features a big and adorable photo of my daughter. The opposite page is about me, featuring a picture of me drawn by the amazing Nicole from Pleasure Pie!

Before the journal actually begins, I put a spread of two pages for my New Year’s Resolutions. At the end of the journal, I included a spread for my accomplishments of the year.

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Every month starts with a spread of the monthly days, followed by the days of the week.

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At the end of every week, I put this page called the “Positive Corner” where I would list the positive things that happened that week, no matter how big or small. It is my attempt to keep a positive frame of mind. Writing out the positive things sometimes helps put things in perspective and be grateful for what I have.

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The following page lists my plans for the upcoming week, including meal ideas, grocery list, exercise plans, and random notes.

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At the end of every month, I add this page as an incentive for productivity for the following month. It doesn’t have to be long and elaborate which is why I only have this circle to fill, and it gives me the option of flexibility.

I obviously filled in the important days of the year – anniversaries, birthdays, holidays, and added to the month of July the subheading “International Zine Month”.

My hope is to fill this journal with a bunch of awesome kickass things and follow through with productivity, fulfillment and positivity.

Peace, love and all the good stuff to come

To Hell with Procrastination

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I’m very happy with my progress with my new year’s resolutions. I already got the new bag that I’ve been meaning to get. I also got a cool patch to sew on it (I’ll ask my mom to do it though because she has a sewing machine whereas I have two myotonized hands).

Today, I made a new patch for my Etsy shop. And here it is!

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And, miracle of miracles, I’m actually done with my Canadian passport application. I have an appointment at the embassy in a couple of weeks and I hope to get this out of the way as fast and as swiftly as I can (provided they don’t send me back to Jerusalem empty-handed because of documents I may be missing, which will probably happen because Murphy’s Law is my mortal enemy). I don’t want to spend one more minute with this headache than I have to. Ugh!

For the past week, I’ve also spent most of my time covering my dining room table and my work station with tiny confetti-size pieces of paper while working on the new issue of my zine. A nice little pattern of black, purple and white, as well as star stickers and washi tape stuck all over the place became my new tablecloth/desk, and all is right in my universe.

I also wrote a final piece for the zine and drew my mascot, Twigz, for the last page. I’ll uncover the cover in due time, but for now, I can honestly say it’s definitely in my top three favorite zine covers.

Once the layout is done, I hope to have it printed and ready before the end of the month. That means hauling ass, which I shall do now.

Peace, love and praise the zine mess

 


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Zinester Beats Winter

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I feel pretty damn happy with myself today! A rare occurrence on a day where the sky is so gray, it’s practically black.

Though Tai Chi Thursday didn’t happen because I woke up with excruciating cramps, I decided to finish up on the mini zine I started yesterday about fighting winter blues. Here’s a picture of the finished product. I shot this photo in the office today while our central heating didn’t help me with my icy fingers, and I had to work with my gloves on.

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One of the tips I give is to create anything at all. “Creation beats destruction,” I write. And as is pretty obvious by my mood today, creating this zine made me super happy, and winter skies didn’t stand a chance.

This pretty mini is now off to the press and then, on Zine-Making Monday, after I write the final piece for my PMS Perzine, I’ll go to the post office to send a bunch of zines including this one.

Peace, love and victory is mine!

 

 


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War on Winter Mini-Zine

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My activity for today was to create a mini zine. So I spent my day at the office making a mini zine with tips for fighting winter blues because seriously that’s what I’m trying to do and it’s becoming pretty fucking difficult when we have a combination of crazy winds, hail, rain, snow and thunderstorms in the forecast.

Yes, shit.

As my luck would have it, I ran out of glue, so my mini zine is all in pieces which is why I can’t share it with you at the moment. But this is the cover I will be using:

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It’s a computer collage I made a few years back as the cover for the freedom issue of Af magazine. I didn’t think I’d ever get a chance to use it for one of my own zines, but yes, I’m using it for my new mini zine.

I think the zine as a whole came out rather nicely. I’m especially proud of myself because instead of using computer graphics and Google Image searches, I drew my own stuff! My lack of talent at drawing was not so bad, if I do say so myself, and my attempt was successful. So hell yay!!

Peace, love and dear winter, prepare to meet your doom!

Bark at the Purple Moon

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I’m working on a new issue of my zine, featuring the new name “Purple Moon Spawn”.

I finished writing the intro, explaining my reasons for the name change. And I also wrote a piece about my connection to the moon – the significance it has in my life, what it represents for me and how I identify with the cycles.

Most of what I wrote came out rather metaphorical, somewhat surreal, and includes a bit of a spiritual twist. Not necessarily religious, but more “transcendent” than most of my recent writing.

It’s undoubtedly the powerful influence of the moon. Today is the new moon of Shvat. The moon is dark. It must stand for something. New moon. New zine. It was the perfect day to start writing it.

Also, according to my New Year’s resolutions, I set my zine-production day for Monday. So today was successful and very productive indeed.

I can’t wait to continue working on this new, shiny, glowy, purple-power perzine!

Peace, love and Lunar-Chicks

 


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Caution: Artivism Ahead!

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I decided to go ahead with a list of re-zine-lutions anyway, as ideas are coming and going through my head and if I don’t write them down, they might be doing more “going” than “coming” and never come back.  Some of these already appear in my previous post, and also in my diary, but yeah, I want them all together in here.

So this is what I hope to accomplish this year somewhere in between Load of Laundry One and Load of Laundry Two.

  1. Write and publish a new issue of Purple Moon Spawn
  2. Participate in International Zine Month
  3. Give Inktober a shot, even if I suck at drawing
  4. Participate in ZineWriMo
  5. Make at least three mini zines
  6. Make a new flyer for PMS Mess
  7. Contact new zinesters for trades
  8. If number 7 accomplished, make a zine-review zine about zines traded
  9. Reorganize my zine collection (and make sure to stack it up high enough so Little Miss Demolition Toddler won’t get at it)
  10. Set Monday as my zinestering day and fuck all other house chores and obligations
  11. Update and print my PMS Mess catalog for 2019 (preferably do this at the end of the year so that all my new zines and creations appear in it too)
  12. Revive my journaling flame and record accomplishments as they come
  13. Make another mini-zine with my daughter (a.k.a. Little Miss Demolition Toddler)

Tips for keeping a creative frame-of-mind:

  • If feeling uninspired, reread “Overthrow the Status Quo” by Nyxia Grey – the most inspiring zine in the world if there ever was one!
  • Light scented candles and keep them nearby
  • Use every free moment at the office to draw/write something
  • Turn off my goddamn phone

I may have more ideas flowing in soon, and if they do, I’ll add them in my journal and thus stick to the activity of number 12.

Wish me luck!

Peace, love and kickassery shall prevail!

 


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