Last Friday was the last day at my job. I finally decided to quit because after working there for a year (from 2008-2009) and quitting because the boss is a dick, and going back there after nine months of being unable to find another job, and working there for another year (2010-2011) and still take all the boss’s shit because I needed cash, I was thinking, this is fucking bullshit.
I think one of the things that really pushed me to quit was, believe it or not, Arch Enemy’s Khaos Legions. Yes, that’s how powerful this record is. And especially the song No Gods, No Masters (which, for some reason I have yet to comprehend, not many people like) includes lyrics that made me think “Yeah! Fuck Yeah! I’m worth more than this!” Lyrics like: “Be strong, take this chance, make your way, a better future calls,” resonated with me in such a powerful, ear-perforating way, it felt like Angela Herself grabbed me by the shoulders, shook me until my neck snapped, and told me “THIS IS BULLSHIT!! GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!”
Working 50 hours a week at a place where I am treated like garbage and feel dirtier than that when I get back home is no life to live, and since there is “only one way to live” (Cult of Chaos by Arch Enemy – Khaos Legions), I’m gonna say my final fuck you and farewell to this shithole, and trust in the One True Force of Justice in the Heavens, in the stars that control my Zodiac sign (Libra), in the Holy City and in the cactus juice that runs in my veins. Eventually a better future is calling and “I control my destiny” (Thorns in My Flesh by Arch Enemy – Khaos Legions), and I choose to “be as free as [I] can be” (Cult of Chaos by Arch Enemy – Khaos Legions)
So now I am walking the dogs in the early mornings, looking for a full-time job in the late mornings, and working at a part-time secretarial job in the afternoons. I feel less tired and happier than I’ve ever been.
I still hate capitalism and believe it is the cause of my wasting two years of my life because of this job and risking losing all the self-esteem I managed to get after my three years of therapy, also because of this job. But since that doesn’t change the fact that we’re all still slaves of the system, and that I still have to play by its rules, at least I’ll make sure that after the curtain falls, I can go back home, put my labret back on and resume my detachment from conformity. It’s like a quiet revolution. I still live my life despite the mass prophecies of doom by the media, by the Wall Street executives, by the greedy corporate patriarchal governments and false medical professionals who think they’re hot shit. These are the ”empires of corruption” (Under Black Flags We March by Arch Enemy – Khaos Legions) and any doom they prophesies will be their own.
Peace, love and “Freedom will be won at any cost” (Yesterday Is Dead and Gone by Arch Enemy – Khaos Legions)